I've gotten several messages and text messages the last couple of weeks asking if I'm still alive. The answer is kinda.
Back story on why I feel I have the authority to talk about that I'm going to talk about:
In middle school I was chubby. Very chubby.
...
Okay, fat. There, I said it.
It was a serious issue with me... Eating was my addiction. I ate to relieve stress, I ate when I was bored, I ate when I was lonely... It was my answer (without me even noticing I felt that way) to everything. I didn't consciously decide to eat in those situations, I just did. Then one day I noticed it and decided it was making me MORE unhappy so I made myself stop.
Well, Ever since I've been semi-consciously doing the exact same thing using video games instead of food. And lately worst of all. I've been stressed and unhappy, so I play video games. And the resulting lack of success and discipline is making me more unhappy. And it's going to be SUCH a long, uphill battle to work this addiction into a healthy mini-vice.

And the DS IS good for something. An app called Colors! is one of the best art programs I've ever worked with. It makes me want a Cintiq...
So yeah... An offering of apology from me for being a bad Deviant:

Love you guys. :]

Hokai. I went to a convention, I had fun, and yeah.
I started on the Vulpitine. I was taking a different approach than usual. I was drawing it like I USED to draw, with real sketches and tons of detail and shading and eventually I was planning to paint in the color. All digital, naturally, but very traditional style. it looked so good. And then my computer broked. My USB ports all died. Mouse, keyboard, tablet... My computer was useless. so I had to let it go... And I restarted.
The Vulpitine is gone.
But fear not! I will start over. And I plan to make a lot of other contributions to the artistic community soon.
I realized something strange... The artwork that catches my eye more than anything has very bright, playful colors. So why do my pictures use such dull traditional ones?
Because I'm lazy. So I'm going to try and use brighter, more fun colors for work that I'm not doing on commission.
And commissions that people give me creative license on.
In short, I'm going to be myself more and be less lazy with my artwork.

Now I am going to go work on that Vulpitine!

It seems like I spend more time updating my journal here than putting ART here. Frustrating.
It seems like most of my friends and/or watchers didn't subscribe to my journals, either... Except EskimoBlueBoy. And I do not know HOW he finds the time to take those lovely photos, spend time with family and friends, AND check my journal among COUNTLESS other journals on his friend list...
You must be a busy man, sir. ;]

Well, well, well. I went to the mall today, and applied at almost every store. I say 'almost' because some are really high-end stores that require lots of experience I don't have. But I have an interview for Hollister on Friday.
It's a start.
I'm in one of those slumps where you convince yourself that all the things you've worked for in life are unattainable because you can't have them now. I know I just have to keep faith... But it's really, really tough sometimes. It's super-easy to lose sight of your goals when you're hungry, you know?
I haven't gotten that concept art finished. I feel like I'm not cut out to be a proffessional artist. My work ethic is great on other things, like filing or answering phones or mopping... But when it comes to commission artwork I strike myself as a very lazy person.
And it's my dream.
So maybe it's just a dream, and I'm doomed to be a poorly paid cashier the rest of my life?
Oh, foo.

On the bright side, the hope that I may soon have a job and thus money has put me in a great mood. So I've seemed plenty optimistic and cheerful to everyone else, which puts them in a good mood, which makes me feel happier. That's what I'm good at. Making people smile. It there a proffession for that where I don't have to wear giant shoes and a big red nose?

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-Out-

You.
Me.
Phantom Hourglass.
BATTLE.
Nao.
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^--Friend Code.

Don't think I'm easy. I got strategies.
Don't think I'm hard, either. I have a 40% win rate. Hahaha!

So yeah. The new DS has distracted me strongly from doing ANYTHING that needs doing. Starting tomorrow, I am TAKING CONTROL OF THIS SITUATION.

No more video games until I have finished my chores and gone out of the house looking for jobs for at LEAST a couple hours. In fact, I'm gonna start on those chores now.
And then once I have control again, I should start drawing and posting again. Yay!

Love you guyssss.